Portrait of Geovane, the site's author, on the Elucubrations page. He appears in a 'Morpheus' style, sitting in a dark library, offering a red pill and a blue pill, inviting the reader to choose between truth and illusion.

Musings

To ponder is to work by lamplight, to burn the midnight oil searching for meaning. Here I offer no easy answers (the blue pill), but my honest attempt to confront reality (the red pill), be it about the silence of deafness or the noise of daily life.

Getting to Know Silence

Cover image for the post about Silence. We see a small rural town under an orange sunset, completely covered by a huge dome of transparent and translucent energy. The dome represents the invisible frequency barrier that isolates the inhabitants of Silence from the external hearing world.

I was thrown into a parallel dimension: Silence. It's not just deafness, it's a frequency barrier that divides the world. In this visceral account, I present the rival districts of Sinalecta (Sign Language) and Tecnoral (Oralized), expose the interdeaf discrimination I suffered (being called 'Fake Deaf' and '007'), and explain why, for us AudioAtivos, technology is not a luxury, it's survival. Understand rule number 1 of this place: nobody leaves here alive.

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Amara Relevium

Panoramic view of the green lawn and brick chapels of the Jardim da Saudade Cemetery, under a blue sky. The sign made of shrubs reads 'Jardim da Saudade' (Garden of Saudade), the setting where I experienced grief and the final farewell to my mother.

As soon as we entered the chapel, my sister immediately noticed that Christ was nailed to the cross… and for us, especially in that moment of mourning, it was very important to reaffirm that…

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10 Years Behind the Scenes of Events

Geovane Souza walking alone at Galeão Airport, illustrating the loneliness and exhausting routine of those who work behind the scenes at events.

After 10 years behind the scenes of events, from air traffic control to coordination at Rio 2016, I expose the unfiltered reality of the "Eventual Show." A brutal account of career transitions, the frenetic routine of freelancers, and the weekly "hiring and firing" cycle that defines who works in the shadows of the spectacle, far from the glamour and without labor rights.

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Deaf Cinema

Only those who are truly unable to hear can understand the range of deprivations that exclude us from activities as mundane and essential as listening to music, dancing… there are cases…

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All Forms of Deafness

Today I woke up unexpectedly inspired, and this morning, while the podiatrist was removing the embedded fossilized debris with a jackhammer, I was trying to piece together everything I've experienced since I joined…

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